That ALIVE Thing

Well, when you don’t have a choice– when your life going forward has to be different, it can take a heck of a lot of adapting. -A lot of transitioning, and a lot of adapting. But, for me, it turned out there wasn’t as much of a path forward as I expected there would be, and should be. It’s been more like a lot of hacking my way through a hot, humid, dense jungle!

Path? What path?! Three years and seven months into this jungle, I think I’ve figured out a few of the basics. First, it’s not just about a path forward; it’s also about figuring out where I’m even starting! That’s taken quite a while. I think I kind of have that mostly sorted out now. And second, even if I could have my old life back, I wouldn’t be able to live it. I’ve changed in some really fundamental ways. Even though I was fortunate in many ways, and even had a career I hoped never to retire from, there’s an awful lot I just can’t do the same, and an awful lot I’ve come to realize I quite simply refuse to do the same. Thirdly, my life now is different, and it’s also different. It’s not the same as it was, and it’s — by choice– really different from “normal, everyday life.” It’s a ride!

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